So, I've been thinking recently. Now, I know what you're thinking- "Oh jesus. Not another excessively-emotive, whiny, over-analytical, teenage-angst filled post on self-realization." Well, no, not exactly. I have, however, actually come to a realization.
I want to raise a family. I want to be successful. No, more than that. I want the white picket fence, the two model kids, the environment killing minivan, the house payments, tax payments (resulting tax returns), DIY channel. The home equity loans, the mid-life crisis, the happy wife, starter home in the 'burbs, keeping up with the Jones', soccer practice, 9 to 5 life. Not the starving artist in New York with a studio-loft apartment looking over the projects. I do want the "American dream". I want the life that I always used to scoff at and go "Oh, how pedestrian." in my moody angst laden teenage way.
However, I can't help but wonder; is this maturity surfacing? Or this just another one of my melodramatic flights of fancy? Who knows.
Better yet, who cares?
Current Mood: 
contemplative
Current Music: The Shins - So Says I